Leave me be and take your great suggestions with you on your way out

I am back to scream into the blackness of the blog void.

People try to help me by constantly repeating the same things over and over, I am so sick of hearing the same old "be positive" "be friendly" when that is what I have been doing all along and it's not fucking working.

It's especially annoying to get advice on things that you know for a fact is useless because the people trying to help you have no idea what you are talking about. You just sit there saying words.

So tired of this endless repeat.

If you don't get what I am on about just stop trying to help me.

You are annoying.

I'm fed up.

Leave me be.

Pet peeve

Oh that's right.
I forgot.

My pet peeve where everyone treats me like I never notice anything around me because I appear to be a quiet person that has no relations with other people.

Well, sorry to disappoint you.

It's just because I don't spend all my time talking, but listening and watching the people around me I notice the subtle differences in them. I know when you are changing your pattern and I do not appreciate when after weeks of feeling I did something wrong being the only person you alter your pattern with to simply give me a scruffy little "oh by the way...this wasn't your fault. I just thought you were to dumb to notice the difference because I think of you as a child."

The cold sea

If someone can't make the effort I simply let them go. I don't care if it pisses them off when I stop talking to them. There is a limit to patience and chances. They had their chance. Too many. I don't have time for someone to slow me down like that. I can get more done on my own. There are others that are more reliable. My fired up anger have passed. It's replaced with the silent cold water, and like that water I will be moving on.

nnngh

Because rant drawings makes me feel better and I have a person I am not done talking to. Also my friend is feeling sick so we'll just be miserable together.

Nevermind

That's fine.
I will stop caring.
Since me trying to cheer you up will obviously lead to other people making up their own opinion about why I did it and that is a great concern of yours....I'll just leave you alone.
It's fine with me.
I will stop trying to be your friend.

Should have known you are just like all the other people out there.
You just don't understand an socially awkward introvert.
I do not get closer to people than friendships.
If I get close to anyone at all.

So never mind.
I will leave you alone.
So the other people that are like you
don't make up more of their stupid opinions
about what people like me are.

I don't know what is wrong.
I just can't seem to do anything.
It's like there is this blockage somewhere.
I can make lists of what work I need to do, I have no problem knowing what should be done.

Sometimes I suspect the main problem is the room.
It's a single glazed window which makes the wind blow straight through my room, it's practically the same temperature as outside at times, it so cold I have to sit around with my scarf and gloves on, sometimes I even make my headphones double as earmuffs. My body can cope with chilly, but here all I do is dread getting out of bed because it's really cold.
I only get stuff done sitting in bed under my blanket, but that is also when I get the least done because I'm too comfortable.
=___=

also my slipper died.

@__@ white pages

Why is so much of the internet having a white background?

My eyes hurt so much from looking at white pages all day.

I wanted to write my essay using a book.

All the useful ones are taken out.

I have to resort to white internet pages that burn my eyes out with their brilliant brightness, even when I turn my settings down.

Why internet.

WHY.

YOU ARE HURTING ME